Everytime

Everytime I jump in river

to swim towards my home,

Everytime I have never been able to 
see the shore.

Everytime I find some peace,

find a little solace,

Everytime my hand is bleeding

by a broken glass.

Everytime I try to run

I end into crawl,

Everytime my mirror smiles

I end staring ceiling and 
making friends with shadows on the wall.

Everytime I build it all

I wake up from my dream
And everytime it all fall apart
right in front of me


Everytime I see spring coming,

it ends into rain,

And everytime I have to walk

that old familiar lane.

Everytime I am the child

whom God never took his home,

Everytime I am left

like an unfinished song.

Now everytime that cold dark corner

in the back of my room,

Speaks to me and says,

“I’m coming for you”.

Everytime it say to me,

“How dare you smiled once more!

You will be punished,  

your soul will be torn”.

Everytime I look in that corner
a creature lurks,

He whispers to me,
hiding a smirk,

“You shall suffer if you can’t find,

the demon lurking in your mind”.

“Go away!” I yell into the dark

as if someone is there,

I feel as if I am a prisoner

in the dungeon’s lair.

So I get a funny feeling

it comes from deep inside,

I get all mad and angry

wanting to go and hide.

That’s why everytime I wear

masks to disguise,

So that the pain I carry

should remain hidden behind my eyes.

Everytime I try to write

all what I have to say,

But the words,

they rot and fall away.

So now with a hole in the bottom

I’m sitting in this sinking boat,

And slowly sinking

just in sight of the shore.

© Vikas Singh and Surreal Aberrant, 2008-2013